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Haiz...
It's been a long time since i last wrote... guess i oni write when i'm feeling low ba...
Watched finish chu han jia xiong on crunchyroll... hahaha sort of a break ba.... the ppl in dere r juz all too scheming... wat was the worst ting was tt xiang yu made peace with liu bang when he had the upper hand, only to get backstabbed by him instead... haiz... wat xiong di qing? wat brotherhood? all rubbish...
Alot happened recently... the suspected cheating case, ahma's hospitalisation, many many more... plus the neverending war with a's.... its almost the  end of the tunnel... yet i still dun c any light... haiz....
Anw juz learnt to watched the cloud... took a 5 min break todae juz to look up at the sky... the same cloud... is juz a cloud... yet look different everytime u look at it... it is ever changing... juz like ppl's heart... in tt 5 min i saw the same cloud disperse, recombine, before disappearing... haiz... its rili like ppl's heart... sometime ppl r all united in 1 heart, sometimes in divided minds, sometimes... dey mayb dun even have a heart...
Official 10 more days to the end... gotta fight on... gotta push myself...

li meng gu heng dai qing
wa mo li zhe me heng dai
Benkip 09/11/07 4:18 PM Comments (56)

Haiz...
Nearin the end of prelims... sort of ended ba... left wif both mcqs of sciences... haha...
Haiz... its a real tough period... rili... its hauntin mi... agn... i rili nv felt worst b4... n my temper... its gettin frm bad to worst... i tink its a sign...
I dunno... everyting... u noe? its every single mother f***in ting... GP... maths.... chem... econs... phy... its hidden everywhere... even in radio n converstaion.... isit mi tt is too sensative?
Ppl tink i'm crazy bt it is true tt i c it everywhr... its worst than sy seeing ghost ba...

我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼


Benkip 23/09/07 3:26 AM Comments (41)

Haiz...
0000hrs... i'm officially 18!!! n a day old le... hmm... lets juz start wif the happy stuffs:
Reached sch juz in time so din get to go to the benches whr the 26th are... so i tot dere's nth le since everyone r oso bz muggin fer prelims... kian den handed mi a card... tinkin tt its a wordy message, i chose to study my notes for the test later... little did i noe tt it was a clue... after the test, i automatically walked to the council rm even w/o lookin at the clue (a council room key)... stuck to the door wrote "clue 2" wif a key of a cupboard in an envelope. i moved away my jacket to open the cupboard n found nth... tinkin tt its the J1 playin some game, i put the envelope back n went towards the table n surprise surprise! Haha thx to all hu bothered long enough to surprise mi... anw, the clues was to make mi find the card hidden inside my jacket, haha bt aparently i din feel aniting while removin th jacket...
So aft tt we went to c the monkey tree agn b4 havin a little breakfast at mac dne head to JP fer lunch wif leow...
Bck in sch, i juz practically rot... din feel like doin aniting... den celeste ask mi accompany her to ops rm... once we open the door the lights were on n dere were funny sounds frm the other side... i kp sayin dere's sum1 ovr  the other side n its juz a phone ringin... so i climbed up a table n to my surprise dere was a cake on the drum... i stood still for 5 secs... tryin to figure out wats goin on... i went to the other side n opened the door bt din c anyone, so i wanted to leave... den celeste pushed mi in... it was den tt i realise it was HSTLYL who were goin to surprise mi... haha... rather surprise though... so we practically went to LN n lagged toll late at night... n its rili fate... i wanted to come hme early to watch the laz episode of the 9pm show, yet missed it... so end up in the LN... n i dunno y i suddenly chged the eng radio channel to 933... 5 mins ltr i heard a song dedication fer mi, by germx!!! its rili rili coincidental... thank god i heard tt n i'm rili grateful...
Now to the bad parts ba... some misunderstandin arose agn btw mi n germx n ya... tink she's angry wif mi... haiz... rili dunno wat to sae other than sry... juz... dunno y such tings kp happenin between us... hope she'll stop ignorin mi soon...
N ya... juz kinda disappointed at the bdae wishes... thoug i tink tis is the bdae whr i gt the most no. of wishes... read a line frm my fren's nick... put mi into deep thought....
In any other case, rili a million thx fer all those hu rmbed n cared...

Those who mind din matter, those who matter din mind
Benkip 17/09/07 4:20 PM Comments (44)

Haiz...
Juz past 3 papers... many many more to go... bt juz feel like laggin liao... dunno y random thoughts kp comin to my mind... find my self fightin within.... u noe like an angel n a devil within mi tokin to each other... haha tink i'm goin crazy le...
Watched alittle of the 9pm show whr i saw a nice guy being used by everybody juz becoz he's nice... which juz led mi to tink tt perhaps sumtimes one shdn't b so nie... mayb horse is rite... its becoz i'm too nice tts y will "bei ta men chi"... haiz...
Jux suddenly feel sry for myself... y do i fight to pay for ppl whn i can barely fend for myself? Y do ppl other than me kp complainin of poor yet still manage to find money somehow? Y do i pay for ppl who can bet soccer? Am i retard?
Hahaha... haiz... the world is goin crazy man.. wats wrong wif tis world, mama? juz whn i decided to juz walk off, u juz come out one time n another unexpectedly... ARGH fk it la...

yao wo zhe me jian?
Benkip 12/09/07 3:15 PM Comments (47)